Bad day

Well. today was horrid. It started out alright, but then I completely binged on popcorn and chicken wraps. (BADDDDDDDD IDEA...) I drank tons and tons of water until i got REALLY sick. and finally puked (TMI sorry...) I felt absolutely horrible. 

I think i sat next to the toilet for about 20 minutes crying. I then got my fat ass off the floor and went out for a run. so now i sort of feel a little bit better. 

Here is a tip. DO NOT HAVE POPCORN IF YOU BINGE!!!!! hurts like hell and it tastes even worse than (dare I say it) kettle corn ::twitch::

hope your day went better than mine.

Stay strong

Love, Briana

Youtube videos

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Love always,

Briana

nutrition facts

Well, I am not 100% on the nutrition facts on coffee, tea, and candy. Coffee and tea are typically if not always, 0 calories. the thing that give you the calories is the sweetener. so be sure to use 0 calorie sweetener =] and cut back on the creamer.

but here are the nutrition facts for the foods/drinks that i buy. all numbers are amount per serving and numbers in []are % daily value

Jello brand gelatin:

Serving size: 1/8 package (22g)

(makes 1/2 cup)

Servings per container: 8

calories: 80

Total fat: 0g [0%]

saturated fat: 0g [0%]

trans fat: 0g

sodium:100mg

total carbohydrate:19g [6%]

sugars:19g]

protein: 2g (not a significant source of protein)

Jewel brand canned Tomato juice:

serving size: 8 fl oz (240ml)

servings per container: about 6

calories: 45 calories from fat: 0
total fat: 0g [0%]

saturated fat: og [0%]

trans fat 0g

cholesterol: 0mg [0%]

sodium: 680 mg [28%]

total carbohydrate: 10g [3%]

dietary fiber 2g [8%]

sugers 7g

protien 1g

vitamin A [20%]

vitamin C [120%]

calcium [2%]

iron [10%]

I also buy Fuze. its a drink. it is delicious =] there are many different flavors, types, etc. this is just my favorite one: slenderize tropical punch

serving size 8 fl oz. (240mL)

Servings per container: about 2

calories=5

calories from fat=0

total fat og [0%]

saturated Fat og [0%]

trans fat 0g

sodium 5mg [less than 1%]

total carbohydrate 1g [less than 1%]

sugars 0g

protein 0g

vitamin C [100%]

chromium [15%]

tomato juice diet:how to

At first, I started on the ana boot camp thing. I lasted like 3 days but i find it hard to try to eat a small amount. its always easier for me to eat nothing. 

So, I started this diet. I sorta made it myself. or at least i thought of it myself. I picked up some tomato juice (the canned stuff....it was really cheap at jewel...) It was under 2 dollars for a 1/2 gallon of it and that give you 2-3 days worth of food. so not too bad.

here is how the diet works....

mon-friday: 1-5 servings (8oz=serving) of tomato juice a day. Drink TONNNNS of water, hot tea with sweet n low or coffee

daily calories: 135-675  

saturday:drink 2 servings of tomato juice today. drink a lot of water, hot tea, with sweet n low, or coffee. and eat 1 serving of jello for either a snack or dessert you can get any brand, any flavor etc. 

days calories: 170

sunday: Fast

If you feel like you are going to binge, eat either some of the jello or drink some tomato juice. but always be careful, the calories add up. if you are feeling a little hungry, drink some tea, chew gum, suck on ice cubes, take your mind off of it (cleaning or playing video games works best for me), suck on a sugarless lollypop, or find some sugarless popsicles that dont have a ton of calories. or, my favorite, suck on some peppermint candies (preferably sugarless) or drink some peppermint tea. (again be careful, the calories add up fast. but you can always drink peppermint tea if you use a 0 calorie sweetener.) 

This weeks shopping list: 

1. Canned tomato juice (should have around 45 calories in each serving) make sure it is 100% tomato juice, but it can be from concentrate.

2. Jello

3. coffee/tea

4. all the cofee/tea fixins =P

all this costed me 20 dollars. You can also use coupons or find the jello on sale, especially since it around easter. also, dont forget to use your jewel, dominicks, etc prefered card. or get them in bulk at costco, etc. but be careful about doing this, you need to, after you open the can, put it in a separate container, and drink it all within 7 days. 

Well, if you need a buddy, motivation, etc, dont hesitate to email, IM, text, etc. or you can watch some of the thinspo videos i am hoping to put up on youtube some time today =P

Briana 101--an introduction

HI EVERYONE!!! My name is Briana, but you can all call me Bri =]. I dont know a "nice" way to say this, so I guess I will just say it. I am anorexic. I have had an eating disorder since I was a freshman in highschool. Maybe slightly before that, but nothing really prominent.

So, Why, you ask, did i "choose" to become anorexic? I think it is mainly for control. I cant control my life, things that happen in this world, and how people act, so i fast. 

It is also, slightly, because I feel sort of alone. so having ana love me, and be there for me, is awesome. 

I have a finace that loves me, a cat to play with, but other than that, i just feel like no one else loves me because I am just so.......unwelcome. but enough being down. i am totally too happy to be upset. I am GETTING MARRIED =] looooveeee it

love, Briana